srinderella react to BTS 'ON'

well

 I started to cry on 0:46

just right when RM's solo part started

it's like I meet an old friend

the aroma of coffee, lingering on our nose

we haven't been catch up on what's going on for a long time

both of us are so occupied with our own activity 

but just by a short story

it's like (s)he understands what's going on with in my life lately

without much details, 

(s)he knows it very well

that I started to cry...

That I realised, I've been through so many things 

when it's just the 2nd month of 2020

'it's okay, you're doing very well... thank you'

...

just like when BTS released 'Run'

I was wanted to 'Run'

I wanted to runaway to chase something abstract called 'my dream'

just like when BTS released 'Forever Young'

it was almost the end of spring, and the summer is approaching

I was one step closer to that abstract thing - I got into my first ever job

it was a bit like what I've always wanted

it's never to late to get what you want

you just need to keep working on what you want

just like when BTS released 'Not Today'

I was struggling, trying to do my best

to get 'the approval' - not letting anyone bring me down

tho I was failed

just like when BTS released 'Love Yourself'

I was again - questioning my existense 

at the age of late 20's

just like when BTS released 'Boys with Luv'

Maybe I started to know myself better, 

I fall in love again with myself

and today with 'ON'

I got jailed, in a 'beautiful prison'

it so beautiful - I want to stay

or more like I should stay

it's okay, this prison taught me so many things no one can :)

it's okay that not everyone understand

the wound soon will dry, and became my winning trophy

it's okay

you're doing very well

Thank You

미치지 않으려면 미쳐야 해

'gotta go insane, to stay sane'

BTS 'ON'

Pada 26 Januari 2019, Aku Ingin Memberikan Segelas Es Teh Kepada Kim Jungwooo

TIPS BELI TIKET KONSER ARTIS SM DI KOREA (baca sampai habis ya)

Hari ini menandai tepat 2 bulan setelah aku jauh-jauh ke Korea demi nonton dede-dede gemesq - pemberi warna dalam hidupku - my sunshine - NCT127.

Keberangkatan ke Korea waktu itu bener-bener dadakan, bisa dibilang super impulsif - mungkin keputusan terimpulsif yang pernah aku ambil dalam 27tahun terakhir :") (sambil mikir, keputusan impulsif lain apa yang pernah aku ambil). Kalo dipikir-pikir ada sedikit seee...di..kit penyesalan, karena ditengah krisis ekonomi - rendahnya pemasukkan - dan banyaknya kemauan -- pulang-pulang dari Korea aku menjadi sobat misqueen yang menganggung hutang tiket pesawat, dicicil sampe 6 bulan kedepan (sebaiknya jangan dicontoh ya).

Jadi, konser The Origin ini adalah konser pertama yang aku tonton pas lagi puncak-puncaknya musim dingin, dan ngerasain suhu -7°C pas antri merchandise TT_TT. Tapi demi dede-dede gemesq aku rela - demi jastip aku rela :( - aku bahkan beli merchandise halu, yang mana aku orangnya aslinya pelit banget urusan jajan merchandise. Yang bikin sedih cuma 1 sih - gara-gara kedinginan aku jadi ga ada semangat untuk cari-cari freebies atau goods fan site NCT yang cuco meyong :( , semoga ada kesempatan lain ya ffuffuffu...

Berhubung kelar ngantri merch jam 12 siang (MULAI NGANTRI DARI JAM 9 PAGI fyi) dan konser mulai jam 6 sore, jadi aku sempetin jalan-jalan dulu ke tempat lain, makan siang dan tidak lupa ibadah (yang nonton konser jan lup tetap beribadah lo! biar baerkah fangirling annya) PAS jam 6 kurang dikit aku sampe di venue - DAN masih harus nyari pintu masuk section ku yang mana masih agak jauh. WOW WOW WOW - deg2an si - takut kelewatan konsernya (meskipun dijalan sudah nyiapin diri untuk kelewatan 1 lagu). Sampailah ke proses pengecekan tiket (agak deg2an yang lebih ekstra, karena ini ceritanya aku beli tiket dari tangan kedua - karena ga memungkinkan untuk nge war sendiri dan sedikit kuatir tiketnya ga valid - TAPI ALHAMDULILLAH bisa masuk dan dapet gelang kayak masuk ke Jatim Park gitu kkk)

DAN! Ternyata ketika aku sampai di venue - KONSERNYA BELUM MULAI, ternyata mereka nungguin aku :") 

 gimana ya...

Emmm...Girl's Only? Inspired by Movie Ocean 8

-- disclaimer : no - I am not going to write about 101: Being a Criminal for Dummies -- 

please, please excuse my vocabulary and the grammatical errors.

So, Hi again~

I hit my laptop as soon as finished cleaning up upon I arriving at home -

it's 1 am here and I just came back from watching 'Ocean's 8' - yeah that movie about bunch of female thieves.

(yes, it's Ramadhan and I could've doing i'tikaf, but my cycle force me not to :( )

No it's not something to be proud of (to be home at 1 am, driving alone and I was violating some traffic rule, oops) but, I just need to write these down  here to remind future me -- who might had mood swings, slight depression or the same old problems: insecurities.

So

The movie could just be a 'female version ocean series' (I always love Ocean 11-13 tho) like what people have predicted -  but what aspire me was the girl power spirit and taking vengeance upon your ex to the next level (it's not like I have an ex that needs some kick in the butt - but I can say I encounter some similar situation - I have sort of hatters).

All along the movie what's on my mind was,'Which should I go next? What things should I learn next (insert: considering of going back to university to pursue another degree). I want to go to New York (tbh I've never wanted to go to NY, but I just changed my mind: I want to go see Metropolitan Museum of Art where Met Gala happens. Ok). And...I want to learn how to negotiate - no - more like I must learn how to negotiate.