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20171122

My Unrequited Love


So , I was here going to rant about
how two days ago I was awaken
and I feel like what I need the most rn is affection

well, put that aside
because I've tried to taking care of it

While browsing for this post's picture

I was like, "wow! it's November already and it's going to end soon...And 2018 is coming fast"
and I was thinking, I am still thinking about it.
What I've done so far...
Though I've been working in some company with a'global environment'
I've went to Japan, and been to Shibuya and Tokyo Disneyland
or I've been to Holy Land
(and insert 'watching BTS concert' overseas, although I almost got killed)
this year...

It seems like my truest dream are still still far away
it's so frustrating, I feel like I am actually on an 'unrequited love' situation
 ...
 
 ***
 By the way during my flight to Holy Land
I got a chance to watch these movies:


Wild (2014)

20170227

typical


and in the end.
I want to be acknowledged by my hard-work
I don't care if my hard-work is not a hard-work on someone else measurement
I worked hard
I worked hard so that I can be who I am now.
I worked hard to understand who am I.
I worked hard to...I worked hard to like everything about me.  

I worked hard to be special.
I worked hard to
love myself.

then, 
can I get my glass shoes soon? and the prince and big castle with beautiful chandelier inside ?
can I?

I don't have any talent other than being a dreamer.
don't take my dream, because it equals to killing me...

February 2017,
S

20161127

weekend, 2 months later~

I guess there won't be another weekend spent by reading Harlequin kind novel
Because I did yesterday, and it was a total mess

I'd rather spent my precious weekend by have a good talk with anyone from any accepted circle
or watch doramas or read online manga/webtoon

however, yesterday I was taking 'baper' into the next stage
so painful


so painful to see Isyana's instagram
knowing she is in Surabaya
but couldn't watch her stage

so painful - I know a could ask a certain person to join with me
but, 
was afraid to hear a rejection 
and either afraid of other possibility
I don't wanna grow larger sun flower on a wrong field 
*sigh*
 
JUST DON'T READ HARLEQUIN ON WEEKEND
not for a mid twenties
not for me

HELLO SUNDAY!
oh no~ it's almost December
nothing change in this November TT_TT

COME ON! IT'S NOVEMBER ALREADY!

20160321

(almost) 25y.o and... I know nothing

jauh dari rumah
dan singgah beberapa saat di tempat asing
bertemu dan bergaul dengan orang yang berbeda
melakukan hal yang jauh dari kebiasaan
memang terbukti 
...
terbukti berhasil 
membuat saya menyadari
apa yang salah?
apa yang salah dari kebiasaan saya 
hingga rasanya menjadikan saya
sebagai orang yang 'itu-itu' saja

*baru saja saya temukan juga di sebuah web
sindrom dari orang-orang golongan INFP adalah kebutuhan untuk jadi berbeda

bahkan terhitung dari sekitar 3hari yang lalu
*kurang lebihnya
saya baru benar-benar menyadari

bahwa sebuah tembok tebal yang secara sadar atau tidak sudah saya bangun bertahun-tahun lamanya
adalah sebuah tembok yang benar-benar menghalangi saya untuk menjadi lebih dari apa yang sebenarnya tak pernah terpikirkan oleh saya.
sedih sekali

dan sekarang pun saatnya saya harus memaafkan diri saya 
yang telah membangun tembok itu.

20151013

map


a map

some people are struggling to read a map 
while some other people think 'it's their cup of a tea'

some people reach their destination 
because of a map
whilst some other lost into an unknown destination
because of a map 

so
*
cheers

mood:


20151005

Tribute to Young Boys Who Helped Me Finish my Thesis

dear husband,
please forgive me if I use shirtless photo of this young boy who has an amazing high notes, falsettos and adlib as my phone wallpaper



I am purely interested to him because of his voice

and fyi he and his group helped my graduated
you didn't event present at those days
where have you been

and oh, this guy's voice is killing me as well:




so please play them most flirty song 
in case you want to ask me out

so oh-
you better have a beautiful voice , esp with high notes
maybe we could make a killing duo 

bye

20150904

confession

eyy! actually i have a task to write some article tonight
but I was just couldn't write anything, and went to aff (instead

yeah I am still a sucker for a fluffy - love hate - cheesy - high school-y story
*because I think that won't be happen
at least in my life
a tree which won't bloom any rose

why why why

how could you did this to me
torture me
have we meet before
do I even know you?
do I know your name?


picture taken from : pinterest via google

20120426

letter to the future



나도 Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
더 이상 혼자 두지마
이제 Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
너는 어디에 에 Oh
Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
너를 꼭 찾아 낼꺼야
너무 오래 얼어버린 나를 녹여버릴 너는 도대체 어디에 있는지

Me too, Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
Don’t leave me alone now
Now Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
Where are you?
Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
Lovey Dovey Dovey Uh Uh Uh Uh
I will definitely find you
Someone who will melt me, who’s been frozen for so long
Where exactly are you?


Hey! last night I wondered where are you now???
You know, I miss you so much eventhough I never meet you, or perhaps we have met actually?
(fyi my heartbeats hard when I write this)

I don't know I miss you so much recently, (hell it's because those marriage issue, by people around me)
oh yeah someone told me that we will 'tie a knot' when I reach 24-25
so it's gonna be 3-4 years latter >///<
how old are you now?

errr, how many girls have you dated?
mine? 1 actually, and that was when I was too young to understand about a relationship
so it lasted for 2 days only
and then I guess, I just want to wait for you patiently
really I just wanna show a 'special side' of me in front of you 
(aaah feel sorry)
how do you feel? hehe
I hope and I believe that you will understand my crazy act and weird personality
and I'll accept you the way you are :D

umm, what music do you listen to?
I am so into K-POP, and R&B, hip-hop , soul, something urban
rrr, I wish you're not jealous to all idol that I adore
especially BEAST's Lee Gikwang and Son Dongwoon
sometimes I wish you're a fanboy too hehe, into T-Ara, KARA or AKB48
so we can have our fan moment together

do you like traveling?
for me it's like my biggest passion
I always dreaming to go to Paris, Greece, Maldives, Bangka Belitung and Lombok with youuu >///<
hope you'll get a good job or having a big business, get settled so you can pay me to go there #plak

I don't know what I am going to say anymore
too much question actually
I just wanna see you AS SOON AS POSSIBLE
been miss you a lot