20130701

alien

*aah so sad ~ no comments for last week's post*
though I always hopes that some people anticipated for my blog-post each week

DISCLAIMER:
this is just a long boring post
so skip these, if you have more important stuffs to do

emotionally, I bring a different feeling toward this post
strange-ly 

it popped out few hours ago when I had a dinner
it just 
I CAN'T BELIEVE I AM IN SOUTH KOREA
the land-of-many-people-been-dreaming-of
yes, I can say that

I know it's weird, I just realised that I am on my third weeks of staying here
...

I just realised
that it's been three weeks I didn't sleep in my room anymore
that it's been three weeks I passed a different road
with a unknown words in it's billboards *but thanks God I managed to know how to read it, without really understand it's actual meaning*
that it's been three weeks I didn't eat my favorite-local-dishes
that it's been three weeks I couldn't communicate with the woman from the restaurant that I visited
that it's been three weeks I contacted my mum, sis, bro and my girls via LINE, not see them in person
that it's been three weeks nobody really understand when I swore in my local language *except one girl*
that it's been three weeks 

I AM OFFICIALLY AN ALIEN

in this most-wanted-country-to-be-visited-by-most-fangirls
in this not-so-rich-of-diversity-country
which it was obvious that I am a foreigner 
with this a piece of cloth covering my head
with this short-but-yeah-full-figure *okay I know that I have some accumulated fat in certain area*
with this noticable dark skin 
and broken English

but 
I like to be an alien


and this is not the end
I promise to myself that I will be an alien again
in other place
other country
when nobody will know who I am
when I will be an object to be seen
when I will be an object to be talked about

and I just don't simply want to be a tourist
live in a very short period 
I will make it as a study visit, or work, or *ehm* accompany my future husband to work or study aboard
but who knows

I know it's too early
but I am enjoying this alien feeling

...


okay done with my emotional feeling
but I like to be here
I like to be in this program
I like to meet many people, from various places
that I might never been there before
I like when I am listening to people speak in a languages that I don't understand
and then they speak in English with their own accents
* I guess I am not done yet lol*

but yeah
this past 2weeks as an International Summer Session Student is inspiring
I can read my personal future plan, add something and remove something regarding my future

but one thing for sure
this place is far from home
made a new kind of thirst for me
I am spiritually thirsty
honestly, 
this a month++ stay is not a new thing
but let say I've grown spiritually *I can't measure it actually, and I am not sure, have I grown?*
...
people do this and that
pursue this and that

...
we know life is not forever
there are after-life

I am not trying to be a preacher
but this is what I feel
deep down inside my heart

life is temporal thing

have you prepared for your journey to your eternal homey?

just ignore this if you have prepared a lot 
I envy you

and I believe some will just ignore this post
and think I am a total weird

because I am
***



last Saturday
I went to a movie

yeah a movie
in South Korea
surprisingly
the ticket price is killing me
and I don't really understand what the actors said, thanks to my bad english
and ...
the subtitle written in hangul *obviusly, I didn't expect anything, don't worry*

the movie titled "World War Z"
 
but it was interesting
a lot of things popped in my mind
I made some conclussion

-  Gerry Lane (casted by Brad Pitt) is total ideal type, not because he is Brad Pitt *well, I never put him in my hot guy list* 
but because he is Gerry Lane a depend-able type of man, 
I feel I've been an independent girl for these past few years, but...maaan~ I am spoiled inside *yeah I have two face*
how calm he were, when he got in so much troubles, I know I need this kind of person to complete my life (?)
I was almost teared up, I remember certain person whom abandoned me *don't ask me who*

- Zombie, is a non-sense, it will never appear in our life, my life
but have you realise
that certain people, organizations or anything, anyone
WANTS YOU TO BECOME A ZOMBIE

think about it
have you ask yourself
what do you do everyday
a constant thing
to reach an unknown ending
which ending do you expect
?

the ending of our life is not when we die
death is mostly a beginning of eternal live

so let's check one another 
are we a zombie
am I a zombie
what do you care in your live
if you just seek a happiness, I mean a blind one
a kind of happiness that make other side - other people suffers 
*like a zombie you eat other people, and make them the same like you*
a kind of hapiness that harm other person's life
that harm your life
a happiness that only lasted for short time

than you are zombie
am I a zombie
I am still figuring
and I don't want to be one
let's correct and remind each other



the other conclusion, 
let me save it for myself
not for public kkk

see you next week~
I have a mid-term on Thursday ;___;
hooo~ so fast
don't want to leave *from this country* yet
wanna find myself~

but I am 'thirsty' lol

 photos taken at Suncheon Bay Garden Expo
credits by not-a-good-photographer ME

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