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berusaha menepati, setiap hari Senin sama dengan ada postingan baru, halo di Minggu ke dua!

*yah maaf dengan sedikit rekayasa*

karena baru bisa online tengah malam, jadi technically postingan baru selesai hari Selasa sih.. 

fyi, karena minggu ini adalah minggu paling emosional dalam satu bulan , maka mungkin postingan kali ini kadar emosinya akan meledak-ledak layaknya bom Hiroshima-Nagasaki... mungkin

tema postingan hari ini adalah

22 Tahun dan HARUS NGAPAIN?!?

yah dunia tau *ih sapa lo*, kalo terhitung sejak 4 April yang lalu, usia saya = 22 tahun, jadi kalau hari ini berarti:

22 tahun 1 bulan 16 hari 

sebeneranya pertanyaan 'HARUS NGAPAIN' ini sudah menghantui sejak... yah sejak saya officially nganggur... nganggur menanti bulan Juni dan Agustus datang... 

dengan gampangnya BANYAK ORANG, pasti akan berkata, SKRIPSIMU GARAPEN! 

*kan mulai meledak-ledak*

sebenarnya semua hal itu, SEMUA HAL ITU bisa dijalani , SEMUA ITU MUNGKIN, THAT ANYTHING COULD HAPPEN , SEMUANYA TERGANTUNG INDIVIDUNYA

sementara... sekarang... sebagai manusia, yang masih mahasiswa koplo, aku masih bertanya-tanya, AKU INI SIAPA? AKU INI HARUS GIMANA? MAUKU ITU APA?

semua pertanyaan itu jawabannya akan muncul dari apa yang kita lihat, apa yang kita dengar, yang menggerakkan hati kita *pastinya dengan seizin Allah SWT lah ya~*

tapi pernahkah.. rasanya semua yang kita tahu , semua yang kita lihat, semua yang kita dengar, SEMUA YANG KITA RASA... BERKUMPUL JADI SATU, ... dan itu sifatnya multidimensi *cieeh yang baru ikut kajian budaya*

yah serius, semuanya ngumpul jadi satu, bahkan nggak jarang itu semua bertentangan satu sama lain, ketika kita pengen mempertahankan hal A, terus hal B jadi terbengkalai, karena memang sama sekali bertentangan, padahal, kita pandang itu semua bagus...

terus apa hubungannya sama skripsi ya..., ADA, karena saat ini, adalah saat dimana hal A dan hal B yang aku pikirkan dan aku renungi itu bertentangan, 

hal A = skripsi

hal B = ... calendar event bulan Juni dan Agustus

memang sih, idealnya selesaikan dulu yang utama *yang bagi orang umumnya, yang sudah tingkat akhir, yang sudah tidak mau membebani orang tua* = selesaikan skripsi

tulisan ini dibuat dengan sesadar-sadarnya kok, dan jangan di simpulkan kalo aku berniat membani orang tua, bukan... sungguh bukan... 

aku merasa meyakini, kalo jalan yang sekarang aku lewati ini, bukanlah sesuatu yang tiba-tiba dan dadakan, tapi rasanya ini buah dari segala doa, ucapan, angan-angan dan perbuatan di masa lalu...

kemarin baca-baca sih postingan ulang tahun , waktu 'masih' 21 tahun, disana saya bayangin, kira-kira ulang tahun di tahun depan (tahun 2013) akan jadi ulang tahun yang bagaimana, apakah saya sudah lulus? ternyata nggak, karena secara nggak sadar, saya punya angan-angan lain yang lebih besar, dan bukan sudah lulus di bulan April 2013..

memang sih, rasanya saya harus, diam, ngga lihat apapun, ngga dengar apapun, ngga terpengaruh apapun, tapi gimana kalo disaat seperti itu, kita terlalu lama diam, 

dan yang lebih mengerikan, bermusuhan sama diri sendiri...

semakin nggak paham deh... 

yang pasti harapan saya, semoga, saya bisa jadi APA YANG SAYA MAU, bukan APA YANG DIHARAPKAN ORANG LAIN

memang kedengarannya sangat-sangat self-centered, dan nggak peduli sama orang lain, tapi, *yah terus aja bikin excuse* ini semua pilihan, pilihan bukan dibuat dalam semenit sedetik, tapi memang sudah dipikir masak-masak baik dan buruknya, dan lebih ke urusan jangka panjang, semoga Allah meridhai lah...

yang semua ujungnya adalah, semoga bisa bermanfaat bagi orang lain

kehidupan orang ngga mungkin sama, cara pandang pasti beragam, yang kelihatan belum tentu yang sebenarnya, buah jeruk bisa terlihat cantik kulitnya, harum baunya dan menggugah selera, tapi siapa yang tahu kalau sebenarnya rasanya kecut, bahkan pahit...

- pemikiran ini selalu saya pegang, tapi entah kenapa kadang jadi bumerang, seperti apa? ketika saya ngga bisa menjalankannya... *lah*, apa itu termasuk tanda belum percaya, tapi jujur aja saya sebenarnya percaya *lah lagi* - 

 

epilogue:

seri 22 Tahun dan harus ngapain ini, masih banyak serinya, sekiranya ini dulu, yang perlu dikeluarkan yang perlu dibagi, 

lebih-lebih ada yang mau kasih komentar 

*bener-bener blog pengemis komen ini, maksudnya kan buat tukar pikiran*

~~BADAI DIRI DEH~~~

~~~semoga cepat berdamai dengan diri ya~~~

semoga semuanya berbuah manis, dan memang ini jalan ke arah cita-cita dan harapan

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Nicole's quiet zeal for life inspires netizens

 

Source: Naver Ent via Naver

Article on what Seungyeon and Nicole have been up to. Seungyeon with her drama, Nicole with going on vacation to New York and focusing on her fitness.

1. [+370, -25] Nicole's really the realistic one... She's still young but she worked her butt off for three years to become a member of an acknowledged girl group. She probably made a lot of money to live comfortably off of. During hiatus, she tweets and hangs out with friends like any other non-celebrity would and then sets off to Japan to make some money. She's not like the other idols who take needless risks and get hateful comments by ruining their images. She's realistic... and when she's about to be forgotten, she comes out on TV once in a while. I'd say she's living the ideal 20 something year old life. Especially compared to other idols who are getting all this hate. Ironically, they're all more popular than her but at what costs?

2. [+255, -16] Hul, Nicole's 11 abs...

3. [+227, -38] Find strength, guys. You guys are the wall these nugu idols can never climb over.

4. [+173, -5] Nicole's abs are amazing... I looked up Pilates because Nicole got me interested but the lessons are pretty expensive.

5. [+129, -30] It's good to see young people work so hard in their lives. I'm almost turning 50 and the only effort I seem to make is eating and living. Time to work harder!!! ^^

6. [+97, -6] Really gotta give props for Nicole and the way she manages her lifestyle. I find it hard even following a week long schedule.. She's young but you can tell she's thinking ahead to the future. Her passion is clear.

7. [+63, -2] Nicole really amazes me with each of her diets and the way her body changes

8. [+38, -5] Can't help but become a fan when you see them working this hard

- taken from netizenbuzz.blogspot.com from THIS article - 

my point of view:

well, tidak ada wanita ideal yang layak dijadikan panutan sih menurut saya sejauh ini, selain Fatimah r.a, karena semua orang tampak, dan pasti ada flaw-nya, tapi Nicole ini sesuatu *she is my girl crush!!!* , sesuatu karena dia seumuran saya, dan sudah mencapai apa yang dia usahakan, bukannya, saya pengen jadi idol, 

tapi ya angin segar dari artikel itu adalah, gimana Nicole yang sesama 91liner, bisa menjalani hidup seimbang... mungkin itu kelihatannya, mungkin dia juga sama punya badai diri, tapi biar sih ngaca sama yang di permukaan itu, jadi inspirasi aja... ayo seimbang! dan survive dari badai diri! FIGHTING!

taken from weheartit.com // sure magazine photo

Nicole~~~♥♥♥

on a Rapunzel condition

so I was planning a movie day today but after my first movie I couldn't continue...

what if not because of I HAVE TO WRITE IT ON BLOG!!! *which is so much my habit*

and something came up... that I will try to update this blog every monday... since I named this blog as mondayinsahara... so I will alwyas post if I have a spare time...I wish I can live this spirit forever...and I wish I'll get a regular reader >_<

credits to : http://disney.wikia.com/wiki/Tangled

So what movie I had? It is none other than Tangled...
Such an old movie... hey!!! I am not that kind of movie mania, right, I mean most of my time occupied with hanging around *act like a popular person, when I only hang with same circle all the time* or read so-wasting-time kpop news and gossips ooor sleeps... or trying for something that I am currently fight for, what I stand for
SEE I AM.. BUSY... I AM!!!

so what makes Tangled become necessary as a blog topic...
It is...the lesson: which suit my condition!!! hah!!!
And I wish this post will inspire people and... so that more people read my blog and more people give a sh^t *I mean comments* ... aaah!!! That dream is far away to be true I guess ;__;

*snaaap* back to the topiiic!!!

What's on Tangled?

You know this movie is about a girl named Rapunzel...a classic tale about a girl trapped in a tower and then a bad guy save her... and they fall in love

but I saw it on other side... it matches with my current obsession... "Explore a  new world"

You know I am going to S.Korea next month for a summer school *well thank God I got a scholarship...sooo I can visit Korea for the second time in my life*
And since looong time ago I've planned to do some extend trip...so I will stay longer and earlier... and up till now I got no clue about what to do I've proposed here and there and asked here and there for a voluntary job but it remains no answer and exact respond

Sooo... I still HAVE NO CLUE!!!
what I learned from Tangled is... Rapunzel is just as the same as me... she have a reason why she wanna go *to outside world* and when there a chance she grabbed it without think twice... and she just do anything and doesn't care about any obstacles *it cost a consequences*...

So my problem is like WHERE IS MY CHANCE ;___; I'VE SQUEEEZED MY BRAIN... I've think about any possible way..to contact any people which could enlighten me... but up till now and it's like 2 weeks more to June... and I've still got no answer nor idea

But as I am... I've struggled for those internship chance *which I got it now, because I don't give up* 

I've said *once more* that 'I wont give up' I just need an adjusment plan, other plans, plans A-M may have failed, so I have to set plans N-Z or I have to get ready for plans A1, B1...and so on

Huhuhuhu... I won't give up (1000x)

The guy with the chance will come!!! I believe

And what makes me feel 'same' as rapunzel is... we have the same reason 'WE NEED TO START OUR LIFE'... if you know what I mean *you don't have to understand...let my imaginations wander... and I match it with my future vision*

BYE!!!~

btw the Boat-date scene is sooo romantic!!! I've been dreaming about going Venice with my men from heaven and do the same lalala

 credits to : http://welovetangled.tumblr.com

fyi my second movie was The Amazing Spiderman 4, which is good, it was 2 hours and I wasn't sleepy, well spiderman is my favorite superhero afterall, even I used it as my email password *the old mail one* 

and I can tell, the nerds are sexy! *aaah! smart guy is always be my type :3* which is Peter Parker~
but talking about nerd... I can forget this guy... current obsession

sexy nerd with nice butt are so my thing ~ kyaaa

Aaand

I FOUND THE.SAME CONSPIRATION THEORY THAT TANGLED HAD ...WITH IRONMAN3 and also spiderman 4!!!

They have the same pola of ... 'something which-able-to-extend-your-life-spand...and heal your wound instantly' I bet Ill***nati is working on it... and also the same 'overly high-drunken guy', remember Mandarin on Ironman3? They have the same character on Tangled which is the cupid guy! See!! I hope someone wants to discuss it with me ;___; *a desperate blog author*

credits to : http://welovetangled.tumblr.com/

So that's all for today!!!

ONE WORD FROM *and FOR ME* KEEP LIVING UP YOUR DREAM!!! NEVER GIVE UP!

and one question how Rapunzel managed her so~~~ long hair, why it is so smooth and strong, I BET SHE NEVER WENT TO BEAUTY SHOP

WHAT HAPPENED?!? U-Kiss Fan Party April, 27th 2013, Jakarta-Indonesia

oooh~ how good I am at procastinate something 

well that wasn't an honour, I should change >_<

well, jadi ceritanya tadi habis sholat shubuh, terus kepikiran pengen posting ini

WHAT'S BEHIND U-KISS FAN PARTY 

"from the Kiss Me Oppa (KMO) tickets holder view" 

The event held at 27 April 2013

it could be very lovely event actually,

but the love rate dropped on 1,23456789 out of 5

I will put it in a comparison, of what SHOULD BE HAPPENED, and what WAS HAPPENED 

1. Numbered Seat

- Yes, KMO tickets holder got their seat numbered

2. Card Ticket

- then is it considered as 'card', well what a thin card, it looks like a piece of paper

3. Dinner + Hug on dinner session

- well, no proof since taking photos were prohibited, but I could explain the detail:

    - tidak ada istilah dinner seperti yang di bayangkan, like ticket holder in a round table, and take a sit, but it was more like a mini snack session, seriously A SNACK! *more like jajan pasar pula*, I can say my buttler cafe experience were much better than this!

    - and HUG! hell no!!! setiap interaksi yg ada itu cuma karena kemauan U-KISS sendiri, like *ehemm* when Eli did a high-touch-wave, it's like his own idea, or when SoHyun did a high five to certain Japanese Girl, it was beacuse he saw that girl regularly as that girl looks like a Japanese royal KISSME *IMO*

swear I was there... much much behind, I just *cough* too shy, like a little girl in front of her long-time crush

    - and I didn't interact with dear AJ ;__; I WAS IGNORED! *well love is blind, still likes him though :p*

4. Fan sign & High Five all member

- you know what usually happened during the fansign *I only got one experience actually (back to 2011), beside I judge it based on what happened in fancam mostly*

    - well fan sign supposed to be idol signs on an Album, THE LATEST ALBUM OF THE IDOL, and you know, they signed on a FREAKING-PIECE-OF-PAPER, on things like "please write my name" or "today is my birthday" WERE PROHIBITED, ini tidak layak disebut fan sign deh

- as for HIGH FIVE, PLEASE BELIEVE ME... THERE WERE NO THING SUCH AS HIGH-FIVE Session, harusnya HIGH FIVE digelar lepas showcase... TAPI ITU B-A-T-A-L

* and you know what happened, ticket holders ribut lah sama promotor*

5. Group Photo

- Yeah there were a group photo, but it was... suck, I thought it was going to be like an intimate photo sessions, like one member with one person *oh itu khayalan yang terlalu tinggi* yah ngga segitunya tapi at least, ngga yang serame itu, dan kita diperlakukan kayak ngga bayar sama security, dan HASIL FOTONYA too! suck, ngeblur MAKSIMAL!

+++

then lemme tell you the song lists U-KISS performed at the showcase :

1. Without You (taken from Only One album released at 2010)

2. uBeat - Should Have Treated You Better (uBeats debut song ya know)

3. SoHyun x Kevin - Remember ('Syndrome' Drama Original Soundtrack)

4. AJ x Kiseop - Obsession (taken from Neverland album released at 2011)

GOD! it was the best performance !!! *cries ;___; yeah call me biased, but I love this song as well as AJ AJ AJ and Kiseop*

I use to watch this at youtube from their Japanese tour, and I was able to saw that LIVE!!! ;__;

5. Someday (taken from Neverland Album released at 2011)

ANOTHER FAVORITE SONG! it has a deep meaning... for me ... for U-KISS

6. 평생 - for KissMe (digital single released at 2011)

7. 만만하니 - Am I That Easy (taken from ContiUKiss released at 2009)

-끝-

and guess what! they promised us 10songs, moreover, WHERE IS STANDING STILL or STOP GIRL!!! they just sang a side songs from any album (well except for Should Have Treated You Better and ManManHani, but ManManHani is so 2009!!!, but I love the 'chest scratching dance move so much though)

and there were NO HOON! ;___; *how dare you said Full Member will come*

SO HOW YOU GUYS CONCLUDE THIS?

yeaah, I don't blame U-KISS nor NH MEDIA *well NH should pitied us more at that time ;_;*

it's just GUYS please be aware to this promotor : Oppa Oppa Live 
you know what they did to us, to our money dan mereka akhir-akhir ini nge hint bakal ndatengin LEDApple/Yoon Shi Yoon, melihat dari pengalaman yang ada, just be aware, yeah, some people are satisfied, but more people don't, 

since the refund process is not over yet,

 di twitter orang-orang yang masih usaha masih sering twitter, yeah let's pray semoga mereka diberi ketabahan akan kejelasan nasib uangnya, amiiin

BUT I ALSO LOOKED AT THE BRIGHTSIDE

yah diatas semua memang murni rengekan, rengekan, RENGEKAN!

tapi well, semua momen harusnya, HARUSNYA itu dinikmati 

thank you 

I can see this guy in person

I got stiffened when he were in front of me, and he insisted to made me say "안녕" wish we could talk longer ;__;

AJ and apron is such an OTP ;___; paaa~

inspired from my fav U-KISSs song 'Cinderella' he is a prince charming, HE IS... and sadly I guess he didn't saw my uchiwa, or even receive my gift and fan letter

yeah, he looked the same as what I saw in pictures or videos, it's just he looked bigger, he is so tall~, his dimple shine brightly, his smile awww~♥♥♥

 *aaa being sentimental as usual, just ignore this, please be considerate please imagine you saw your ultimateee bias in person* 
admired his features were so enough for me, but I regret it now, I should act more agressive huhuhu

and it made me motivated to become a better person, as a girl (?)

aku harus lebih banyak bersyukur dan terarah on spend my money 
 this might be my last concert, migh be might be 

photos credit to : oppa oppa live document and my personal cam

we are the future ! (no relation with H.O.T by the way)

so...

it's almost 23.00 here

***

I was going to Sutos, to meet my brother and had some sibling time, since we live separately

we were just had a movie and little chit-chat at a restaurant there

but my head is full of stuffs now

FULL, literally

and while I was driving, I kept telling myself to put in on blogie, since if I 'just' tweet it, it will be like one-night nag, moreover if nobody care about it...

it's not that I say, people care about my blog, but at least I can track it someday, or hopefully, someone read it, and remind me about what I've wrote ~ AND!!! I hope someone would like to discuss it with me, since my sister wasn't really interested about it, when I put this topic on our conversation earlier

first

I had Ironman 3 with my sibling, the 3D one *well honestly the 3D effect didn't make sense, but I am glad the ticket price was the same, so I wont really regret it, the fact is 50k rupiah is way to expensive, but I couldnt buy sibling time anywhere, so any amount of money is okay, as long as I hang out with my sibling*

so... I think I saw the movie in very different way, people might say 'aaaww it's cool', 'Tony Stark is awesome' 'blablabla'

BUT!

what bothered me was... this train of though popped ... "I WONT LET MY CHILDERN WATCH ANY MOVIE WITHOUT ME WATCH IT FIRST" ...

the cencorship instution *or whatever its name in English is, please correct me* stated it's for Teen, I could say Teen is 15-19

that's okay

but I saw there are lots of parents bring their child, since it's a typical superhero movie

but this Ironman 3 is... duuude~ it's scary

I hummed about it all along the movie

you know first I guess there is something about this movie... yeah that *llum*nati thing *err I dont want blogspot to force close my blog ;__;* I believe this movie had a 'code',

people talk a lot about it, and know it...

BUT SIMPLY *llum*nati IS NOT JUST A KNOWLEDGE, we have to be sensitive, and more cautious, I don't know there is something about this movie, I feel like Ironman 3 containts some hidden messages, which my simple mind couldn't crack the code until now, I keep thinking about it...

WHAT!!!

the movie talk a lot about terorism, and how someone easily recover from certain disease or disable people could grow their bodies... it's scary... I think it's possible that those things could happen near in the future

SO WHATS THE AGENDA ACTUALLY

I hope someone want to discuss it with meh TT_TT

second

the movie contains  A LOTS OF BOOBIES AND BUTTS, *wont censore it, since toddlers wont read this blog* COME ON! I DON'T WANT MY CHILD THINK, it's normal to play pingpong only in bra and pant, it's ridiculous

third

Ben Kingsley.. The Mandarin guy, is a bad bad drug addict, and alcohol addict and woman addict, that's not a good thing, his life is miserable, though it's just a minor character... it could be a figure~THE BAD ONE

***

so,

the society is on the worst moral state nowadays... and it will go worse each days ... until the day He want it to be... I just feel responsible for the next generation, I am starting to considerate to let my child to just get a homeschool soon,~ come on it's a basic thing to prepare yourself, being a mom someday *ameeen* it's like a big responsiblity TT_TT

my message to him/her would be "I am proud of you being a nerd in dunyaa, since, dunyaa is just temporary place to stay and you can be a popular person eternally, at the akhirat"

the lesson would be : good kids born from a good mom, huweee I am trying my best, I am gonna marry a good guy, I CARE ABOUT THE SOCIETY! I CARE ABOUT THE FUTURE OF THE NEXT GENERATION

please please let me enjoy my fangirl ages just a little bit more, I am getting sick of the facts, and I believe I could stop anytime

...

but it's fun

...

but it's harmful sometimes

...

but it's fun

OH JUST COME MA MEN FROM HEAVEN !!! FALL FALL PLEASE!!! I wanna make you my second bias like forever!!! *Prophet SAW is forever number one am I right*

I will definetely STOP if you're here *not so sure actually lol, but the fact, nowadays groups are containts guys whom much younger than me, I see a little light (?)*

LET'S JUST MAKE A LITTLE IMPACTFULL FAMILY , YOU AND I CHANGE THE WORLD

err I am starting being delusional and self talk about "man from heaven" again

sorry~

 

그리고

may I just being a b*tch now by being judgemental

oh please let me I would like to~

those place which you call of a place where the 'cool kids' hang around, became a sh*** place for me *astaghfirullah, I coudn't find any replacement word*

being judgemental I am , YES I am being a b*tch

the aura is full of down-gradement (?) ~ yeah somekinda like that...

it's just not a place where I should belong, I know and thanks God

and I believe my 'man from heaven' dislike that place either,

***

encore

verse 1

One shot!
Are you gonna give in? Are you gonna be caught by the surrounding traps?
Only one shot!
Don’t run away, turn around and face your faces
Even if the world turns away from you
Protect yourself, that’s the right attitude
Everybody already know?
Hey shout your voice to the world?

(B.A.P - ONE SHOT)

we are soon to be fangirl mum... mum fan (?)

lol

 

verse 2:

 

me : I want to see Surabaya from a high place, but free one, but theres no such place here

friend: let's visit my workplace, the view from rooftop is awesome

me : OKAY!

P.S : this place is like 180degree version of the place which I visited today, it's calming, relaxing, lots of stars and lights, so beautiful~ 

I wanna find somekinda place like this~ where where where, which open for public 

LET'S DISCUSS IT!!! ANYONE ?!? ;;)