alien

*aah so sad ~ no comments for last week's post*
though I always hopes that some people anticipated for my blog-post each week

DISCLAIMER:

this is just a long boring post

so skip these, if you have more important stuffs to do

emotionally, I bring a different feeling toward this post

strange-ly 

it popped out few hours ago when I had a dinner

it just 

I CAN'T BELIEVE I AM IN SOUTH KOREA
the land-of-many-people-been-dreaming-of

yes, I can say that

I know it's weird, I just realised that I am on my third weeks of staying here

...

I just realised

that it's been three weeks I didn't sleep in my room anymore

that it's been three weeks I passed a different road

with an unknown words in it's billboards *but thanks God I managed to know how to read it, without really understand it's actual meaning*

that it's been three weeks I didn't eat my favorite-local-dishes

that it's been three weeks I couldn't communicate with the woman from the restaurant that I visited

that it's been three weeks I contacted my mum, sis, bro and my girls via LINE, not see them in person

that it's been three weeks nobody really understand when I swore in my local language *except one girl*

that it's been three weeks 

I AM OFFICIALLY AN ALIEN

in this most-wanted-country-to-be-visited-by-most-fangirls

in this not-so-rich-of-diversity-country

which it was obvious that I am a foreigner 

with this a piece of cloth covering my head

with this short-but-yeah-full-figure *okay I know that I have some accumulated fat in certain area*

with this noticeable dark skin 

and broken English

but 

I like to be an alien

and this is not the end

I promise to myself that I will be an alien again

in other place

other country

when nobody will know who I am

when I will be an object to be seen

when I will be an object to be talked about

and I just don't simply want to be a tourist

live in a very short period 

I will make it as a study visit, or work, or *ehm* accompany my future husband to work or study aboard

but who knows

I know it's too early

but I am enjoying this alien feeling

...

okay done with my emotional feeling

but I like to be here

I like to be in this program

I like to meet many people, from various places

that I might never been there before

I like when I am listening to people speak in a languages that I don't understand

and then they speak in English with their own accents

* I guess I am not done yet lol*

but yeah

this past 2weeks as an International Summer Session Student is inspiring

I can read my personal future plan, add something and remove something regarding my future

but one thing for sure

this place is far from home

made a new kind of thirst for me

I am spiritually thirsty

honestly, 

this a month++ stay is not a new thing

but let say I've grown spiritually *I can't measure it actually, and I am not sure, have I grown?*

...

people do this and that

pursue this and that

...

we know life is not forever

there are after-life

I am not trying to be a preacher

but this is what I feel

deep down inside my heart

life is temporal thing

have you prepared for your journey to your eternal homey?

just ignore this if you have prepared a lot 

I envy you

and I believe some will just ignore this post

and think I am a total weird

because I am

***

last Saturday

I went to a movie

yeah a movie

in South Korea

surprisingly

the ticket price is killing me

and I don't really understand what the actors said, thanks to my bad English

and ...

the subtitle written in hangul *obviously, I didn't expect anything, don't worry*

the movie titled "World War Z"

 

but it was interesting

a lot of things popped in my mind

I made some conclusion

-  Gerry Lane (casted by Brad Pitt) is total ideal type, not because he is Brad Pitt *well, I never put him in my hot guy list* 

but because he is Gerry Lane a depend-able type of man, 

I feel I've been an independent girl for these past few years, but...maaan~ I am spoiled inside *yeah I have two personality*
how calm he were, when he got in so much troubles, I know I need this kind of person to complete my life (?)
I was almost teared up, I remember certain person whom abandoned me *don't ask me who*

- Zombie, is a non-sense, it will never appear in our life, my life
but have you realize
that certain people, organizations or anything, anyone
WANTS YOU TO BECOME A ZOMBIE

think about it
have you ask yourself
what do you do everyday
a constant thing
to reach an unknown ending
which ending do you expect
?

the ending of our life is not when we die
death is mostly a beginning of eternal live

so let's check one another 
are we a zombie
am I a zombie
what do you care in your live
if you just seek a happiness, I mean a blind one
a kind of happiness that make other side - other people suffers 
*like a zombie you eat other people, and make them the same like you*
a kind of happiness that harm other person's life
that harm your life
a happiness that only lasted for short time

than you are zombie

am I a zombie
I am still figuring
and I don't want to be one

let's correct and remind each other

the other conclusion, 
let me save it for myself
not for public kkk

see you next week~
I have a mid-term on Thursday ;___;
hooo~ so fast
don't want to leave *from this country* yet
wanna find myself~

but I am 'thirsty' lol

 photos taken at Suncheon Bay Garden Expo

credits by not-a-good-photographer ME