AUTUMN

it's October here

in Indonesia especially in my hometown Surabaya the weather still remain hot

when it suppose to be rainy season here

but honestly I really really want to see the leaves turn into orange-red-yellow

there, in a 4 season country

I wish I can see the leaves color turn into orange-red-yellow next year

anywhere which has 4 season >,<

but here, I feel  like going to dress for the autumn

HAPPY OCTOBER! and we'll meet November 

SOON

wish November be a nice month, since I'll have my mid-term test :D

and I guess I am going to try my luck on AMINEF program, which it can make me go to United States

wish me luck

if you interest on the program too, feel free to ask :D

literally : I MISS YOU - 보고싶어

the lyrics fits to how I felt

the song dedicated to my summer 2012 memories:

South Korea

Seoul

Incheon

The Dorm

The Campus

The Classes

The Lessons

The Park

The Subway Station

The Subway Train

The Announcement

The Banana Milk

The Instant Rice, instant curry, instant noddle 

Kimbap

The Road

Sichon, Gangnam, Apgujong and everycorner I've passed

The Market

Cube Cafe
BEAST the whole members
Peniel of BtoB

EVERYTHING related

***

 I don't even know if this is about my mood swing or something...

It's just I miss my Summer 2012 so much...

yeah, I guess I need some good sleep so I don't need to meet anyone and talks about this and that

too much stuffs in my life, 

which I wish everything disappear when I snap my finger

...

I miss the road where I walked

by myself

I miss the subway where I enjoyed the ride so much

just me and my phone, music played

I miss when I saw the moon shone brightly

and I realised that we are on the same land 

*the last part was kinda biased, I didn't have any particular memories about someone*

I guess I refer it to him...yeah that guy...which remain irreplaceable until now, I don't know when will God change him with the real guy for me

YEAH I MISS HIM SO MUCH! 

though there's no word slipped through his mouth for me, though he didn't literally saw me, though he didn't even realise that we met...

I still miss him a lot, 

I know it's sooo childish, but I don't care

I guess I just feel lonely

...

I guess I need someone who really can see me through my heart

*I know even it's him, he wont understand me or something*

but it's just

currently I am tired with my life

...

I really really really want to go back to those days,

where I worry abouth nothing but the summer heat, the heavy rain...

and when I couldn't see him..

 or God I wish for a simple thing

just let me be stronger to pass all of this

I know

I know

I know

that you've prepared the best ending for me...

*forgive me for being a selfish person, I know I am the worst, I am the most self-centered person in the whole world, I've beat Snow White's step mother*

*taken by Queenie's iPhone she lives happily in SG, thank you for documented those precious momment*

*taken inside of inkigayo August 5th, 2012*

If you read this and you want me to delete the picture I'll do it, to express my gratitude~

it's just

God

please 

exchange

him

with

someone

REAL!

*yeah I guess I'm just lonely*